I started with my project Estranged Sex back in 2008.
My life has changed, my interests, my surroundings, my style and technique has changed.
Once someone asked me when would I stop with this project. I still don’t have the answer to that question, I don’t know, I might as well continue until the end, but one thing is sure, and that is that the project changes with me.
I can’t do what I used to do 4 years ago, it just doesn’t.
And this is how Estranged Sex 28 happened. I realize that one thing that is very true for me these days is the clash between what I thought it would be and what reality hits me back with.
By no means would I ever offer a conclusion, that is the one thing we all have to search for ourselves, I just want to raise the question I am asking myself these days. Can someone make love to me like in the movies, literally like in the movies? Can I please bring some butterflies into my life? Is this possible or have I just awoken teenage hopes like when I thought a relationship with Eminem or Keanu Reeves was possible.
A line of men, grand and hopeful, wait for their turn in a hotel room. They have received a flyer (because we are not once upon a time in a land of castles and letters) where it is written: I am desperate to be made love to like in the movies”. In the room, a woman that believes in fairy tales.
I like much more a version of a Cinderella that is actively searching for something instead of passively waiting to be found. One that is not looking for love and affection but craves to be fucked with unrestrained passion, wildly and having many orgasms. Just like in the movies.
Perhaps it is precisely this last but what interests me the most. Whether it is possible to live up to the standards of our Cinderella. Be as it may, love like in the romantic movies or sex like in erotic novels such as “50 shades”, in the end it is all the same, fantasies that feed us, we nurture them and we end up longing for them, mirages of what could be possible but never become quite real, and actually won’t, because they can’t. And it is neither down to her nor them, all the men are going to try their best and even beyond to make love to her like in the best movie ever, it is just that movies can’t be out won.
This is when it hits you. When your life is not as you had imagined it. When your fantasies won’t become true. When if you are lucky enough a butterfly would come nearby but by no means would you have thousand flying around, when whilst fucking against the wall you realize how rough it feels.
When you are still dreaming that someone would make love to you like in the movies, you send a flyer around, because who knows if you would find your Prince Charming, perhaps he is amongst them. Or is he not?
My sincerest gratitude to my team. You are all my Prince Charming.
Photography and art direction: Sandra Torralba
Digital assistant: Joaquin Infiesta
MUA: Yohana Rojas
Models from left to right: Alejandro, Juan Luis, Joaquin, Victor, Alberto, Jose, Ruben, Sandra and Fede.